snzrdy

WITH LOVE

2008-12-17T23:51:00.003+08:00

I don't mind you telling me

What's been on your mind lately

I don't mind you speaking up
I know sometimes I can be

All wrapped up and into me

I can be in such a rush

Just slow me down

Slow me down

Tell me tomorrow everything will be around
Just slow me down

Slow me down

You're the one who keeps me on the ground

Baby you can be tough

Sayin' enough is enough

You can even be blunt

Just do it with love

You can tell me I'm wrong

That I'm coming on way too strong

Don't think I'll be crushed

Just do it with love love love love

Just do it with love

I can take your honesty

All your words weigh heavily

I'm listening to you all the time

I wanna be there for you

The way you've been there for me

You always help me walk the line

And slow me down

Slow me downI know you will always be around

All this time we finally know each other

Now that I've been leaning on your shoulder

I can tell you baby that you're right when you're right

And you're wrong when you're wrong

I can be weak cause I know you'll be strong

- With Love, Hilary Duff

i want love

2008-09-09T21:54:00.002+08:00

I want love, but it's impossible

A girl like me, so irresponsible

A girl like me is dead in places

Other girls feel liberated

I can't love, shot full of holes

Don't feel nothing, I just feel cold

Don't feel nothing, just old scars

Toughening up around my heart

But I want love, just a different kind

I want love, won't break me down

Won't brick me up, won't fence me in

I want a love, that don't mean a thing

That's the love I want, I want love

I want love on my own terms

After everything I've ever learned

Me, I carry too much baggage

Oh man I've seen so much traffic

So bring it on, I've been bruised

Don't give me love that's clean and smooth

I'm ready for the rougher stuff

No sweet romance, I've had enough

-i want love by elton john

2008-04-22T12:49:00.001+08:00

Updates on my pathetic life.

Work –
Finally, gathered the courage to submit my resignation letter last 11 April. So my last day with this company is on 10 May. So looking forward to that day. No more screaming at the girls, no more getting screamed from customers.

Less Stress = Less Short-Temper. Hopefully.

Yeah Right. Haha.

Family –

3 weeks back I received the most panicky call ever. Mami called saying that she was from polyclinic and the ordered her to go straight to Hospital because they apparently found a lump in her ‘cik rahim’. More Panic because Mami and me could not get hold of Dad. Stupidly none of us know the phone number of his working place. Tried searching using yellow pages online but the only listed is their fax number. Nabeh. Luckily, my aunt managed to get hold of the Dad’s work place and the kan-cheong me managed to leave a msg for Dad.

Took urgent half-day, rushed over to KK. Took a number and waited like foever before it was our turn. Seriously, I don’t know the doctor is acting stupid or really-really stupid. Mami was Ordered by the doctors at the polyclinic to go to KK RIGHT AWAY, and a referral letter was given. When it was our turn, the Stupid KK doc checked my mom and say it was nothing. When I not so-politely point out that if that’s the case, why the hell the poly docs instruct my mom to go over to hospital right away? THAN only that bloody KK doctor, look blankly at my face, consulted my mom’s files and read the referral letter, THEN said “ oh ya, I did detected a small lump, so I will schedule a scan for your mom in 2 weeks time”.
Ringan je tangan aku nak sepak muka dier laju2…

Thus last Thursday, accompanied Mami to KK hospital for her scanning… Spent God-knows how many f***ing hours there. Mlang also went along… Scanning appointment at 8a.m, so we went out abt 6.45 am… (ter-ingat zaman primary-secondary sekolah dulu, kena kluar pagi-pagi.) Scanning was fast, within 15 mins was done, took the shuttle bus back to novena, had breakfast at TTSH… Walked ard at Novena Sqaure while killing time as the doctor’s appointment is at 2pm. Slowly proceed back to KKH, even thoush we were an hour early for the appointment, it was almost 3 when we finally manage to see the doc.

Lucky this time, the doctor was really nice, he took the time to explained to me and answer my (stupid) questions abt that scan result, abt the lump/growth, the surgery that mami have to undergo in order to get rid of that thing and the things that my mom have to undergo before they can conduct the surgery.

To end the long story short, we have to go up and down the hospital to get my mom check if she is fit for surgery, blood test lah, x-ray lah, counseling lah… And mami’s surgery will take place this coming Thursday… Hopefully everything will go on smoothly.. doa kan eh… amin.

Friends –
Miss all my dear friends.. Really I do. Please please hopefully when I start this new job I have time to hang out with my dear friends that I have neglected all this while..
Amin.

Happy times -

07.03.08 – 08.03.08My cousins got engaged, my family cook for the event. Tired to the bone, preparing and cooking food for estimated 500 pax. Really luckily the cousins from Johor and their BFs came down to rewang… without them I don’t think my family can do it. Want to depend to my other cousins… haiz.. tak dapat ah… semer tau dating glamor2 je on the day of the majlis… Fuctioning on less than 2 hours of sleep, my dad declared that I am in-charge and responsible on cooking the Nasi of the nasi briyani. Terbeliak kejap mata. Luckily I managed to cook the 35plus kilos of Nasi briyani dgn sempurna. Phew… Anywe the dear engaged cousin, Wany look fabulous on that day…

Turned 23 a week plus back… Yipee! Small celebration with my nearest and dearest. Got a lot of cool presents.. and the most gerek one is my cake is not chocolate! Yeah… Seriously, I so tak favourite chocolate cake. So my dearest cousins and aunt made me a super-delicious strawberry cake… I loike…!!

More on this when i can find the time to update again. For pictures... http://snzrdy.multiply.com

2008-02-23T14:40:00.007+08:00

Hi people… Ader saper2 rindukan i?? Hehe...

Busy giler for the pass few months… busy buat aper you might ask…

Hmm… entah lah eh… tak tau lah busy aper… Busybody agak nye...

Oh ya… for year 2008 nie my company hired new staffs… hah… tu pasal lah tak sempat2 update…kena train the new staff…

Anywe… so far from January 08, ada 3 new staff…

First one lasted only for 2 weeks… then she cabut…. Young girl..
Second one… lasted only for a week... She is yang paling gerek to work with… Can bual rilex with her... but too bad she left also due to some reason .
The current girl is ok.. very sweet girl… fresh… no experience but fast learner jugak ah…

With her around, lighten sikit my work load… but just as I want to relax… the company is branching out to do workers now… so bertambah lah my work load… back to square 1… luckily I am only assisting them on the worker section temporarily until they hire new staff. Thank God. I got more than I could handle now already.

But now I am happier working here… I don’t know… maybe because the bosses are nicer to me than before… they leave almost everything regarding the Girls to me now… Or maybe because now that I got a new staff, I don’t handle nonsense complains anymore… Or is it because now I finally have Sundays off indefinitely… Entah lah…

As for $$-wise… Hmm… my $$ planning for this year so far has been so bloody terrible… All because of stupid impulsive expenses… such as shopping for so bloody many tops… Eye extension… Hair Extensions…

Haiz.. So bloody vain… (Must stop being so impulsive…). Which reminds me….
I owe *someone* $$, must remember to pay back once the other somebody pay me back end of the month…
And ya… I know... I know… gotta start saving $$ soon... at the rate I am going, till the year 2020 I cannot get married… Ish… why do engagement or wedding have to be bloody expensive?

Speaking of which… DD & me are getting along fine now… not so much arguments now… Is it a sign that we are finally getting more mature now? Hehe..

He’s been good to me… only that on my part, I really have to learn to control my temper as I get fed-up/angry/furious easily… (I’ll work on that ok darling DD…)

The only major argument… or … erm… unhappiness between us was due to some stupid misunderstanding between his friends & him and the girlfriend/wife of his friends & me… which was actually a extremely minor thing which was blown out of proportion due to a certain someone misinterpreted/misheard a single sentence… Which I wasn’t very happy… actually I was extremely upset about it as they implied that I start off the whole thing. Anywe that was all in the past, everything has gone back to normal… Almost.

Actually thinking about it makes me angry all over again sey… Especially the person I tot I count on, turned against me and actually believe I do such a thing and instruct me not to be in contact with my friends… How ridiculious is that?... Everyone makes stupid mistakes… I do not judge anyone by their past… Pasal people change… Ok.. Ok fine… I’ll stop here… I ZIP mulut now… before this become a big issue lagi ok… Love u D!

Hmm what else ya… benda benda exciting yang happen lately eh… (Exciting habis hidup aku…*eyes rolling*…)

Oh… ya…

On 13 january attended Kak Maslinah’s Wedding.. So kecohrable when all aunties get together…

Last Chinese New year we, cousins, aunties, uncles (and half of Singapore polulation) went to the beach…. East Coast beach… was great fun… only that one of the more memorable thing for me is that went i badly in the need of the toilet at 5a.m, and both the toilet at the marine cove and macd too bad I got no pictures to show as camera wasn’t with me at that time…

The following weekend, we Cousins/Bfs/Nieces head to Marina Square for Bowling sessions… Lagi gerek… Pasal almost everyone is a virgin bowler… So many funny styles and antics… But the not-so–funny part is that when… they keyed-in my name as b*****… (ok lah… funny lah jugak…) Its actually a corny pet name that my DD call me which sound cute coming ONLY from his mouth… But irritatingly nauseating if others call me that... But all in all was really great fun... Cuma kesian the kids must be tired as we all reached home pretty late... Make this monthly okay people...!

Till here lah people... Kakak Siti da penat type lah... nak kena sambung buat kerja yang berlambak nie...

Bye!!

2008-02-03T17:32:00.000+08:00

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http://producten.hema.nl/

2007-12-29T16:15:00.000+08:00

Selamat Pengantin Baru Naz & Din!!

2007-12-19T11:20:00.001+08:00

Slamat Hari Raya Haji to all.

and

Happy Holidays to me!!

2007-12-19T10:54:00.000+08:00

4 more hours to go....

pls pls pls....

Let all my appointments come on time....

so i can leave at 3pm on the dot...

Pls pls pls....

No more last min cases....

Pls pls pls...

Dont let me forget to do whatever i am suppose to do before i go for my holidays..

Pls pls pls...

May the existing girls at the office behave themselves...

Pls pls pls...

Let the 8 girls arriving during my holidays manage to clear whatever they are suppose to do during my absence...

Pls pls pls...

Dont let be a huge mess of paperwork or cases to handle when i get back in office on monday...

Amin.

2007-12-17T11:18:00.000+08:00

Continuation from yesterday's post.....

Left office at about 1450hrs... went down to the NPP nearby to file a Official Police Report on the lady who took my Official documents. At first takut2 jugak sey... Al-maklum... tak pernah do Police report before... Kena pergi sorang pulak tu... Nasib the guy who was on duty was very helpful in assisting me..

Anyway... I Thought I had enough excitement for the day... So i head home... Had my shower... Was lepak-ing at home, when Darling D called...

"U da siap ke blum?... Cepat Siap... Kita Kluar cari ur present..."

Chey... Dgn sepantas kilat.... Aper lagi... Siap ah... Abt 15 mins later... Off we go to Northpoint...

Harvey Norman at Northpoint was disappointing... I suggested Best Denki at Bishan Junction 8... Time Check 2045hrs.. Prayed and prayed that the shops tak close early....

Da lah racing against time, i feel like all the traffice light from Yishun to Bishan mcm sengaja lak... all turn red as we approach... After much cursing, abt 10,000 red lights and 2 dangerous taxi drivers, we reach Bishan 15 mins later..

Rush like mad to Best Denki... Abt 20-30 mins later... i walked out of the store a Happy women with a smile streching up to my ear... Hehe!

Darling D got me:

It comes with an extra battery, 2 x 2GB SD card, a card reader... screen protector.. tripod stand and whatnots... Cool... Thanks Dear.. I'll get you your present end of the month k...

Malu sey i ... haha...

I'm a Happy happy women... Haha..

2007-12-16T14:44:00.000+08:00

Countdown

2 and a half days of work only....

then it Hari Raya Haji at Johor...

And i'm off to Melaka...

Whee!!!

So bloody stress at work today...

Baru nak relax2.... Ingatkan sunday tak banyak hal happen...

Tup-tup..

Customer Tai-tai yang tersangat cerewet pop up depan pintu kedai...

Haiz....

Kecoh man... so drama...

The case is so boody simple... She nak return her girl... She demanded this and that from me.. Siak je... Sampai to the point she harrass me, stole some of my documents, she ran away and dispose the evidence that resulted me to call the police and all... So menyusahkan... so Kecoh-rable..

Sucks ah keje nie... kena deal with all this nonsense ppl...

I NEED A NEW JOB!!

On a happy note..... my 3yrs anniversary coming up soon! Darling, you know what i want...

*winkwink*

2007-12-02T16:23:00.000+08:00

Happy 25th Anniversary

Mak & Bapak

Help!

2007-11-27T13:21:00.000+08:00

Parent's 25th Anniversary coming up soon...

Help!

Don't know what to buy them!!

Any ideas??!!

2007-11-25T16:29:00.001+08:00

Check this out!!

2007-11-20T11:54:00.000+08:00

Absence makes heart grows fonder huh?

Iye lah tu.... (eyes rolling.....)

12 - 18 Nov

2007-11-20T10:47:00.000+08:00

Phew!...

Bloody busy....

Been running up and down the MOM, Embassy, Tanjong Pagar and Customers houses all week....

Last Wednesday was the worse, i was only suppose to go Embassy to hand over an airticket, special pass, police report of lost of passport and $ to a girl who is going back home. Simple enough rite? but no.....

They made me wait 1 bloody hour to see the officer, only to be told that i have to report at the Immigration counter to report the lost of passport. To cut the long story short, i waited and waited and waited till 1pm when they suddenly announce they are close for lunch and will only open at 2.30pm...

Thus i have to run over to MOM (not exactly run lah... took a cab...) to settle another document. Took the Q no. Mine, No. 0885. I look at the current No. , its 0508.. Boleh naik angin sey... So i went to grab lunch... and waited.... and waited.... and waited..... Finally at 4pm i exited MOM.. Phew...

Ran back to Embassy..... and finally, after putting on a much angry, frustrated face and attitude, that they finally call for my turn...

Seriously bloody frustrating....

The rest of the week was a blur... girls incoming and outgoing…. Sending them here and there…. Arranging for interviews, transfer… Up and down the boarding place… Tiring man…

But anywe… last week ended on a sweet note, attended baby Erika’s Birthday party… D n me bought her a sweet little shiny sumthing…

Happy 1st Birthday Erika!!

shopping!!

2007-11-01T13:41:00.000+08:00

SHOPPING TOMORROW!!!

Can't wait. (rubbing my hands together in glee!)

Hehe..

Hurts!

2007-10-29T12:39:00.000+08:00

Walking around with heavy heart

Trying to distract myself from thinking about it too much

Afraid to think too much about it.

Because it Hurts so bad.

And, i am too chicken-doo-doo to face the outcome.

No one understands because no one cares.

Period.

2007-10-28T11:51:00.000+08:00

Past week was seriously very tiring physically and emotionally...

So many complicated, dramatic case-sarkis happened at work...

One of the more kecoh case was abt this weird Indon girl. This girl is tall, dark, round-ish, very ordinary looking, welll... that's how we women see her as. But to men, she appear to be so enchantingly beautiful ( well... that's what they say) that they can't help but feel a strong urge to be with her and protect her. This caused my friend had a HUGE fight with her husband over this girl. Sooo Kecoh.. And this girl has a deep hatred for my Lady Boss and we found a letter that she wrote that she vow to settle the score with Lady Boss and us all when she get back home... Scary sia...

After calling her family back in Indonesia, we found out that a few months back, this girl was working in Bali, Indonesia. What happen was this stoopid girl ate one of the offering meant for the Gods that the people there are trying to applease. (Bodoh punye budak! Banyak2 bende, bende tu lak yg dier makan..) And they found out that 3 female spirit are currently residing in her body, thus since than, she is acting stanger than usual.

It's soo.. Cerita yg u always hear or read abt but never thought it really happen... Kecoh kan...

Apart from this kecoh girl, there is several more kecoh cases, that involved the run away girls, embassies, police and lost rat that created havoc in our office.

Haiz. Bloody tiring... Really dragging myself to work and drinking lotsa coffee to glue my eyes open....

***xoxoxoxox***

.Emotionally.

.I'm tired.

.You know who you are.

.You know what happen.

.I can't take u doing this to me anymore.

.It may seems a minor thing to you.

.I can't bear to be treated like this anymore.

.Am i asking too much.

.I dont want us to end.

.But somethings gotta change.

.You decide.

Love,

2007-10-26T13:08:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BAPAK!!

2007-10-25T11:43:00.000+08:00

Came across this while reading thru friendster bulletin. And damn! its so true...

GIRL LANGUAGE

If i don't call you
[ Its because I'm waiting for you to call me ]

When i walk away from you mad
[ Follow me ]

When i stare at your mouth
[ Kiss me ]

When i push you or hit you
[ Grab me and don't let go ]

When i start cussing at you
[ Kiss me and tell me you love me ]

When I'm quiet
[ Ask me whats wrong ]

When i ignore you
[ Give me your attention ]

When i pull away
[ Pull me back ]

When you see me at my worst
[ Tell me I'm beautiful ]

When you see me start crying
[ Hold me and tell me everything will be alright ]

When you see me walking
[ Sneak up and hug my waist from behind ]

When I'm scared
[ Protect me ]

When i lay my head on your shoulder
[ Tilt my head up and kiss me ]

When i tease you
[ Tease me back and make me laugh ]

When i don't answer for a long time
[ reassure me that everything is okay ]

When i look at you with doubt
[ Back yourself up ]

When i say that i like you
[ I really do more than you could understand ]

When i grab at your hands
[ Hold mine and play with my fingers ]

When i bump into you
[ bump into me back and make me laugh ]

When i tell you a secret
[ keep it safe and untold ]

When i look at you in your eyes
[ don't look away until i do ]

When i miss you
[ I'm hurting inside ]

When you break my heart
[ the pain never really goes away ]

When i say its over
[ i still want you to be mine ]

2007-10-11T17:53:00.000+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA Y'ALL!

MAAF ZAHIR BATIN!

2007-10-11T16:35:00.000+08:00

Sooo bloody long never blog...

no time...

so busy lah... left two days only to Raya already...

feel like this year fasting month pass much too fast....

Only manage to go Geylang once, together with cousins/aunts/uncles for compulsary gather2 for break-fast at Geylang...

Which turn out to be quite fun, considering that i only manage to buy a shoe. Haha.

The surprise of the day was that, we expected a 20-seater mini-bus that Abg Nasir chartered to send us back home but a 40-seater tour bus turned up.

Here are some shots of us fooling ard in the bus.!

********

Finally on Monday i got my much awaited pay. Amin.

Tuesday, went out with D to get his way overdue birthday present.

After much browsing and negotiating we finally got what we wanted!

A gorgeous black PSP Slim

Cost me a Bomb but it's all worth it.

(Lent it to me someday Please!)

Meet up with my dear girl friends last Sunday... A lot couldn't make it thus meet up with Sara, Hariani & Hafiza only.

After break-fast Hafiza disappeared with her friend, ended up ended up hanging out with Sara & Hariani only.

We went shopping for Raya stuff, i ended up buying a cardigan(thou i really can't afford to spend any $$ anymore for the rest of the month).

So fun catching up with the girls on the gossips and all... It was past midnight when the boyfriends (Sara & Yanie's) come and pick their girlfriends up.

Till we meet again next month girls!

...no money...

2007-09-24T18:27:00.000+08:00

1 week more to pay day.

I'm Dead Broke.

Help!!

2007-09-23T14:26:00.001+08:00

Happy 22nd Birthday Koala!!!

muack!,

2007-09-10T10:14:00.000+08:00

Was so busy last week... no time to update...

Busy doing what u may ask...

hmm... actually i pon tak tau...

Let me start from the top ya...

Saturday

I almost couldn't make it to Sharie's Engagement (Horror! Horror!)... couldn't get day off due to mix-up in the roster...

Panic at the Disco kejap... But luckily everything turns out well...

Sharie's Engagement pon Alhamdulilah turn out ok...

Can't believe my dearest/best-est cousin is engaged.

Congrats Sharie & Luqman!

Sunday

Work : Clementi - Bt Timah

After Work : Hang out with D

Monday

Work : Clementi - Bt Timah

Tuesday

Work: MOM - Clementi

Wednesday

Day Off!!

Hang out with D

Library

Home

Thursday

(First day of Fasting)

Work : Clementi

Half-day!! Whee
Meet Mami, go Chong Pang

Friday

Work : Clementi

Home

Saturday

Work : Clementi - Bt Timah

Break Fast with Family at Banquet

Sunday

Work : Clementi - Bt Timah

Home

Monday

Work : Clementi

Home

Tuesday

Work : Clementi - Bt Timah - Clementi - Boarding House

Home

xxxxx

See.... So boring kan... kan.. kan...

Work-home-work-home....

No Life sey....

Not going out to meet that certain someone because he said that "Boring sey... kluar dgn u slalu"

So ok lor.... i work, work, work lor...

Bye now...

Got lots of work to do.

Get well soon dear.

Bye

2007-09-06T12:09:00.000+08:00

Phwee....

Last couple of day was really goooooood.....

I had half-day off on tues.... Went out with DD....

It's been a looooong time since we been out on a date...

Because of our work schedule and ridiculous working hours, we only manage to meet and catch up for a couple of mins-hours each time and that is usually restricted to woodlands area only.

But Wooohoo... finally we manage to spend the day (well...half-day) together... Dinner at Bugis… Walked around a bit… Window-shopping a bit…

Drop by at DD workplace to check on his schedule for the week… Bumped into a friend and gossiped for awhile.

Basically, Tuesday was really relaxing and oh-so-gooood (wee.. comparing to my crappy mood last week-long…)

Well…. Yesterday was even better, finally have the chance to wake-up late… Woke-up at 1000hrs, fiddling around with Sharie’s Engagement stuff…

Shower, siap-siap and went out with DD again… but this time round bringing his little brother along…

Went out to Causeway Pt Arcade, Suntec City Arcade and Marina Square Arcade… Played ‘catching’ at City-Link Mall…

Haha… Fun… Fun… Fun…

Probably a little too much fun for little Luthfi as DD end-up having to piggy-back him all the way home…

My day didn’t end there… Back home… (Well… back to my 2nd Home…), we cousins held a small surprise belated birthday celebration for Abg Awie… Birthday cakes, candles, present and all…

Then all proceed to my messy house to see and feedback on Sharie’s semi-finished Hantaran stuff for this weekend… And to gossip some more…

So all in all… these past couple days have been really great…

Can’t wait for later…. Half-day again today!!

See ya!

2007-08-30T11:45:00.000+08:00

Seems like I can't do you right

All I do or say is wrong

All the smallest thing critisised

I deserve some damn respect

Nothing more and nothing less

Don't pretend everythings fine

Don't hold it back if its in your heart

Stand up and be a man

Can't read your mind

So I just say aloud

I'm trying to understand

-End Of The Line By Honeyz

Do not Disturb

2007-08-28T11:56:00.000+08:00

Feel so crappy these pass few days....

Call it PMS or whatever...

I don't Care.

No Mood to even bother.

Don't take it personally.

It's me not you.

Love u still very much dear.

Even though i know i been throwing tantrum unnecessarily.

2007-08-15T17:33:00.000+08:00

Fuyoo!

Woo hoo!

Finally my dear Abg Awie got hitched last weekend....

The Solemnisation was held on Sat at Hyatt Hotel (pout! i didnt get to go!). And the Wedding Reception was at Tampines North CC on Sunday.

Sunday was Busy... Busy... Busy...

Liyanah, Sharie & me was stationed at the door to receive guest, never in my life have i smiled at and shake hands with soooo many strangers...And also to assist the Mak Pengantin, & Wakil Bapak Pengantin to pass the Wedding favor that we pain-stakingly put together for the past month, to Guests who are leaving.

Zizie, Azian & Maziah was stationed at the Wedding Favors Table to assist in bringing out and arranging the Wedding Favors.

My fav, Firdaus our KS Waterboy help us to get food and drinks which was situated at the other end of the hall. and oh, cutely distribute the kiddy favors...

Lots of Happiness, Smiles, Laughter and Love.

Honestly, i expected alot of drama, considering that there was ALOT of 'internal' problems, thousands of misunderstanding and God-knows how many catfights that happen or almost-happen prior to the Wedding.

But i was plesantly surprise that everything went very smoothly, with only minor hiccup here and there.

The only Yucks! point of the event is the presence of so-called cousins who despite being the 'supposely-mature due to the fact that they are much much older than us girls', forgot to bring their manners along to the wedding reception and prompt us the GM(Gossip-Monggers) to gossip even harder.. Haha...

Anyway, i had a really good time!

Welcome to the family Kak Nana!

chaotic

2007-08-11T16:42:00.000+08:00

Busy... busy... busy...

The past few days was bloody damn busy...

Bring down girls all over for interviews....

Preparing all documents before i go for my well-deserve long off-days..

But... namer je ada long holiday... tak dapat rehat....

After werk on weds, met up with Sharie and drag ourselves to cousin's place....

While the rest of Singapore busy waving our National Flag, wearing red & white, saying the Pledge, singing the National Anthem with Pride...

Sharie and Me, busy cleaning up the pengantin's place...

To think me, who make my living by promoting and providing cleaning services, is down on my knees cleaning and scrubbing the fridge cleaning out my cousin's cat's fur-infested room...

The cleaning part was ok.... Only that the cat's fur part that gets me...

And yesterday was damn sick til liyana suspect kuat that i got a furball stuck down me throat...

And today.... Stupid Stupid Stooopid girl of mine ran away... with my newly top-up ezlink lagi.... damn it....

Angry sia...

Oh well.... enough stress... be off-ing next 2 days better chill... tml mite be another stressful day... The big-grand Wedding...

Haiz....

The thing that i'm looking forward is that wearing my new kebaya tomorrow... (woohoo.. me in kebaya...) and all the saucy drama that will happen tomorrow...

Many books to write*winkwink*...

But hopefully nothing drastic happens.. (cross fingers, toes & eyes...)

cool!

2007-07-29T11:23:00.000+08:00

Check this out...

http://www.learnenglish.org.uk/games/magic-gopher-central.swf

cool!

Yesssssaah!!

2007-07-28T17:19:00.000+08:00

Whee!

Finally i manage to finish Mystery Case File: Huntsville. Haha! Ok.. ok... i know... that game is like sooo yesterday...

But bear in mind that i am playing this game only on weekends during working hour. Plus do you know how hard complete the game when i have only 5mins per exercution as i have expired the free 1 hr trial already...

Haha... Lame i know....

Anyway....

Yesterday was like... so damn boring!... For the 2nd time since i start working for this company a yr ago, that i had no plan whatsoever during my day off, so i end up staying at home all day. (erm... Technically, not all day: go pasar with mami and meet up D in the morning!).

Was stuck at home as Mami go off to accompany Mlang to spa, Dad working, Lil Sis out watching movie with Liyanah & Maziah, so being the good(!) granddaughter that i am, i accompany grandmama at home...

Spend the day sleep... sleep... sleep...

And glue-ing ribbons on Awi's wedding favor. (Which i doubt be able to fnish in time for the wedding)

D came by for awhile, I had a fun time laughing at him as grandmama kept asking him the same questions every 3 mins.

"nie tinggal mane nie, dekat ke jauh?"

"nie lagi skolah ke da kerja nie?"

"nah... makan lah nie, (turning to me) wedangan nye takde?" translation: Where are the drinks?

etc...etc...

And my sweet darling D, patiently answer each and every question..

But overall, ok lah... Enjoyed the day very much... Thanks darling D, *winkwink*...

$$$

2007-07-16T19:16:00.000+08:00

Shit!

i just calculated my spenditure for this month. Spend way TOO much this month.
Usually each month i just buy 1 shoe (well, my job requires me to walk ALOT, so my shoe tend to wear out fast REALLY!), 1 top/pants, blanja my family, spend a little on miscellaneous stuff.

But damn it! i really go overboard this month, i bought:

The Necessary Stuff:
- Top up EZ-Link
- Hp usage
- Blanja Makan my Family

The Unnecessary Stuff:
- Contact Lenses
- Make-up(Foundation, Concealer & Loose Powder)
- The unmentionables
- 1 Black Pants
- 1 Yellow Top
- Blanja my Girl

The Ok-i-can-afford-to-indulge Stuff:
- 1 RED shoe
- Sharie's Engamement Cake
- A top for Azian & Maziah
- A shoe for mummy
- Groceries (some odds & ends)

Grand Total (Not Including Monthly Contribution to Family) is:

Almost $600.00 !!!!

Bloody Hell!

and the Worst Thing is that,

When i calculate there are still some $200-odd which is unaccounted for...

Damn, see lah...

Spend, spend, spend never kira. Buy this, buy that never think... Stupid Girl...

Stupid, Stupid Girl.

2007-07-13T13:16:00.000+08:00

I give you everything that I am

I'm handin' over everything that I've got

Cause I wanna have a really true love

Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up

Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring

& I want to make it worth the fight

What have we been doing for all this time?

Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right

2007-07-09T14:52:00.000+08:00

HATE IT!!

i really hate it...

Every week must have a super-duper HUGE arguements!! (This is not counting the everyday-fights....)

Everytime it stars of with something stupid and silly.... it will blow up to a HUMONGOUS fight!

Most of the time, words that u know u SHOULD NOT utter will spill out... SHOT first, regret blakang kira...

Haiz....

This time round i admit i was partly wrong... Sorry...

But timing so salah lah, i just finish counselling (screaming!) at one of my girls who despite been working for 4-bloody months still making the same old waaaay stupid silly mistake.

i swear if i still be working here for long, i will be botak from pulling my hair off in frustration every single day and i will die early due to my sky-high blood pressure that these girls is giving me... (slap me somebody!)

Anyway back to my ridicoulously nonsensical arguement with HIM, it starts off me me jokingly making a deal with him: 'I will give him what he wants, within reasons lah, if he delete all that slutty girls on his friendster's friends list.'

So as usual, he joke ard, asking me for ridiculous things that he jolly well know i CANNOT give him, until as expected, with my short-temperness, i call off the whole damn thing.

But he thought that i was still joking, (all this happen on MSN, so he cant see me morphing into a red-faced, female version of Belthazor, half-human, half-demon husband of Phoebe Halliwell of Charmed), so he happily still haggling with me on what he wants in return.

He then start deleting those sluts, happily plotting and planning on how to fully utilise his prize (i can picture him, rubbing his hands together, his smile streching till this ear), when i not-so-politely reminded him that the deal is off like, what, 20 mins ago?....

Then, wooohoooo, all hell just break loose. He accused me of not having the balls to hold up my end of the deal... yada.. yada... yada... ALMOST point out to him... "DUH! I'm a girl, obviously i don't have balls nanny-nanny poo poo." i swear if i did say that to him, it's as good as performing a hara-kiri on myself as he will sure blow up and our arguement will drag and drag and drag.

Haiz...

Looking back sometimes i really wonder, i mean really really wonder, it's nothing short of a miracle that we both are still together for 2 and a half yrs plus...

Haiz... whatever it is... i still love u koala...

Even though sumtimes u behave like a jerk to me... but its ok,coz most times i've been such a monster to you. Hee hee...

Ok lah.... Frurstration tossed out... back to playing game... erm.. i mean back to work..

See ya!

Happy

2007-07-05T12:59:00.001+08:00

Feeling a little happy today...

After Bitch-ing abt work yesterday,3 hrs later, Lady Boss says

"Girl, i need u to go Home Service today.. at Toa Payoh... u leave at 4... take your time... if u want to bring the girl home, then there's no need for u return to office later... if not, then u return to drop the girl and you can go..."

Whee!!!

So dgn secepat nye, i finish up all my work and pack to get out of the stuffy office...

Freedom! Was about to skip with joy bcoz finally can get out of office, i realise i was wearing one of my highest heels.

Damn!

but what the heck! I'm Happy!

So me n my girl slowly make our way to the customer's place at Toa Payoh... Upon reaching her place, miraculously the customer just sign all the documents without much question, and for the first time since i start this job, i manage to conclude the meeting in just 20 mins. Phwee!

To kill some time, i dgn hapi-nye go window-shopping with my girl... (err... i window-shop, my girl just trailing behind me..),.. haha

Heaven.....

Ridiculously Tired

2007-07-04T12:28:00.000+08:00

Tired...

Damn Tired...

It seems like these words kept popping out of my mouth....

but seriously....

Really. I am Freaking tired.

Work-wise:

Tired of dragging myself to work....

Tired of calling and counselling my girls...

Tired of repeating the same lecture over and over again....

Tired of having to walk for 20 mins to and fro in High Heels, mind you, to fetch those girls every single morning...

Tired of having to be nice, smiley, polite and friendly to customers when i badly want to strangle and tell them :

"Oh for heaven sake! Get a life! Your life will not be in great danger if sumtimes your girl forgot to iron/wash/cook/etc... Just learn to live with it... She's not a robot! Zes!!"

God Help Me!!

Him

2007-07-03T18:59:00.000+08:00

hi there,

feel so fuckd up....

Had a super-huge fight... pardon me... arguement with him yesterday.

Tell me if i am being ridioulous...

Tell me if i am being childish....

BUT.....

He PROMISED me....

How dare he...

Sometimes i think is it worth it?

Is it worth it?....the anger, the pain, the disappointment he caused... i admit i am no saint but is he even trying?

to try to make it work....

or

we are already at the point where neither of us EVEN CARE anymore...

I am tired....

Fucking tired to play the game anymore....

I have no time... no energy anymore...

God help me...